At the beginning of this week I was down 21 pounds since Oct. I am still down 20 but the 1 pound came back and I know why.
Starting Tuesday my world has gone crazy. So I've been emotional eating. I realize this and yet I don't want to stop it. I can feel depression knocking on my door, rather loudly. For instance, today all I've wanted to do is sleep. I've managed to get a little school work done but things I need to do, like laundry or things I want to do like workout, I've not had the drive to do. The food I have chosen has not been the best, well dinner wasn't too awful bad, but it is the in between foods that are killing me today and yesterday and the day before. Stress has always been something I've struggled to deal with but this stress is almost crippling.
I am also PMSing and it SUCKS! Spent a few years not having that issue and the last few months it has kicked in and up and I am ready for it to STOP!.
I need to learn to NOT let all of this get me, and knock me out of my new lifestyle. I need to learn to find other ways to deal with it, to beat the depression, the stress, the pms. Deep down I know that it would help to workout, and I guess that is where having a workout partner would be a blessing, but because I don't I need to find the fight within myself.
That being said, is it time for bed yet?
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