Day before I return to work

I am so ready to get back to work, except for the little bit of pain and the mood swings and the hot flashes. I think I will welcome the distraction. Of course where I thought I was finished with a couple of classes I actually found that I have a couple more assignments due and of course they are due THIS WEEK. UGH! I am ready for this semester to be over with, which reminds me, I need to take advantage of my scholarship, if at all possible, for one class during the summer.

I was on the American Cancer Society's website tonight and went to a site linked from their page that specializes in wigs, hats, scarves and some jewelry. I was suddenly reminded that I may need a medical alert bracelet depending on how the Dr does the port for the chemo. One more added expense to my already growing list. BTW someone may need to send me this list at a later day to make sure I have everything. There are so many things that I will HAVE to HAVE that maybe this one can be a "if I can afford it", maybe it is just cheaper to leave a note in my car or something that says "hey I have cancer, receive chemo and my port is.....". It isn't like most people won't know and rescue needs to know it will mean that I am alone and in my car. Hmmm is there an app for that?

Went to my family practice Dr today because of the fever. My right lung is a little tight and even though they don't think I have pneumonia they did change my antibiotic to something that would cover my lungs as well. They also gave me a prescription of Xanax to get me through until May 8th and we figure out the mood swings. The poor nurse practitioner I see, Misty, was floored when she heard my diagnosis. She actually teared up and then when my actual Dr came in, he was just as shocked. I did laughingly tell them "It wasn't sleep apnea". They got a laugh and it is like I told them, it isn't like they would have any clue to look for Ovarian Cancer. I didn't give them any symptoms other than the lack of weight loss and being tired all of the time. They couldn't have known and really would they have been able to stop it? No. Cancer does what it wants.

Well going to try to shower tonight and see if it gives the hot flashes a break. I am going to take a Xanax and see if I can get a little sleep. I am in for a big day tomorrow.  :)